War

How does one get back to God when there no desire drawing you there?

You know you need to

You want to need to

Old habits come back

Haunting you slowly

Silently

How do you get back when you know the He hasn't left you

You feel Him there

Hear Him there

Know He's there

How do you get back when you know that this is test

Of your faith

Determination

Discipline and

Love

One you know you'll be victorious over because you posses the Spirit of God in you

You know His voice

You've tasted of His love

You get back by fighting

For your passion

For your relationship

All on your knees

Seeking the face of your King

Not doing things

But tasting things a fresh

His voice

His love

His presence

His compassion

His holiness

His courage

His warrior spirit that defends you against the worst enemies

His passion for you.

God is faithful to be found by those who seek His face

Do we look after the house of God?

"Thus says the LORD of hosts: Consider your ways. go up to the hills and bring wood and build the house, that I may take pleasure in it and that I may be glorified, says the LORD. You looked for much and behold, it came to little. and when you brought it home, I blew it away. Why? declares the LORD of hosts. Because of my house that lies in ruins, while each of you busies himself with his own house. Therefore the heavens above you have withheld the dew, and the earth has withheld its produce. And I have called for a drought on the land and the hills, on the grain, the new wine, the oil, on what the ground brings forth, on man and beast, and on all their labours."

Haggai 1:7-11(ESV)

God instructed His people to build His house again after it had been destroyed by their disobedience; He gave them specific instructions and promised to provide. Even with all that they had learnt through God's discipline they still didn't listen. Instead with the freedom they received they went and built their own houses first. How many of us have brought shame to God's house because of our disobedience? All of us. How many of us have been freed by His blood? Those who have been chosen. How many us those who have been freed use it to build the life they have always wanted for themselves? Lots. I think one of the biggest things in my life is using the Word of God and His grace to build my life where I can do things that I enjoy. I have been comfortable not building His kingdom in my daily life. Because of this my works have been blown away and no matter how much time I put into trying to find a school to go to or a job to do it has come to nothing. He has slowly been refocusing my eyes back on His house and glorifying His name.
Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all else will be added (Matthew 6:33) Unless the LORD builds the house, the builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the guards stand watch in vain. (Psalm 127:1 NIV) So my friends do not labour in vain, heed the Word of the LORD and build His house so that He may glory in it. Heed the warning that if we leave His house in ruin because of our sin and ignore His commands and His righteousness He will blow us over and all of our work will come to nothing. 

Relationship and Reverence

A really good sermon from a church down in Scottsdale AZ.
http://scottsdalebible.com/message/?enmse=1&enmse_sid=33&enmse_mid=154&enmse_av=1

This is something that God has been teaching me. The reverence part is something that has come easy to me from childhood but it's the relational part that I have had to learn. He has used things like getting cancer, Bible School, and horse training to teach it to me. I want to encourage you to let God teach you to become balanced in the area that is harder for you.