Saturday, 1 August 2015

A Night on the Farm




After a tumultuous few weeks with testing and doctor appointments, it was refreshing to just spend the evening taking photos of the birds and horses we have on our farm. Sitting atop a fence post for an hour or so with the setting sun at my back has a way of rejuvenating my mind; God has been so loving with the opportunity to do this! 
To just take time and not think about what needs to be done or what decisions need to be made, and just rest. How easily it is to be sucked into what I have to do and not what has already been done for me. Even during this storm of health decisions and such, I believe that it is still important for me to take time to rest and not work towards something and just enjoy that which God has bountifully provided for me in nature and my family. 
One encouragement that I could give is to always take time away from all that you are doing, not for yourself but to remember what has been done by the God who loves you very much.  
In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat-- for he grants sleep to those he loves.~ Psalm 127:2 (NIV)

The Hardest Thing of All

The hardest thing with this test is that everyone seems to expect me to be facing apart
To be asking why
To be sad
Scared
Worried
Mad
But when you're not it seems that they don't believe you
They still treat you like you're broken
Weak
Shattered
This is the hardest thing to do.
I am not broken
Scared
Worried
Or angry
My life is not mine
It is not for me
It is not for my comfort
Happiness and such
It is for those around me
For the broken people surrounding me
For those looking for help
For those crying out for help
My life is not for me
It is for God and His will