The thing that makes me sick to my stomach every time; a clean and organized room. Weird I know but it reminds me of moving and leaving everything that I know behind. I don't like change: drastic change. Normally I can talk myself out of the sick feeling but not this time. Because this time I'm actually moving. I'm moving across the world for 9 months.
It's crazy thinking that in 6 days I will be in a different country where they speak a different language and live a different lifestyle. It will be weird not having my brothers having contests to see who's the strongest or just being weird. It will be weird not being able to have late night theological discussions with my dad and late night talks with my mom. Everything is late-night.... must be a night owl... :)
I've noticed myself slowly shutting out things like wanting to see my horse because I know that it's easier to start now than wait till the day I can't just drive 10 minutes and see her. I'll miss staying out crazy late with my friends from church on Saturday night and then having to get up crazy early the next morning to help out in J12. I'll miss doing life with the people I have grown to care for and have grown up caring for, for 9 months. I know 9 months isn't that long and that at the end of my time in Sweden I'll miss all the people and the routines that will become a apart of my everyday life there. I know all of this but it still doesn't change that I will miss home.
I trust God and I know that He wouldn't ask me to travel across the world if He didn't have a reason. I truly am excited to go, I'm just not excited to leave all the people and the animals that I care for behind... It will be so amazing being in a different country. Being able to see how big God's creation is and how amazing it is to be a part of a family that reaches across the entire world (probably one of the coolest things about being a Christian is that no matter where I go I will always have God in common with someone). I'm excited to meet other people who love God just like me and to see Him from their perspective. To be honest though, I'm super excited that they have cold winters and love hockey just like here :)
So in 6 days I will be in another time zone but God is faithful and it will be an amazing time :)
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